I have to admit something pretty unspiritual.
In the circles I’m from, this secret is a huge No-No. Something the truly godly never struggle with. A taboo subject met with shushes and furtive glances should you ever dare to even hint at it.
Yeah, you may want to look away.
My unspiritual secret is: I have suffered from depression.
Why is this so bad? Because the prevailing assumption where I’m from is,
“To despair is to turn your back on God.”
And don’t even get ‘em started on “those people” who need meds or therapy to function – tsk, tsk. Oh the judgment!
Dealing with the Un-thinkable
When Dave and I were dating, we loved to walk downtown. We’d chat, eat, stroll, chat some more, and had a few cozy spots along the river that we especially enjoyed.
One wooden, weathered park bench in particular we christened our "Someday Bench" because the night we decided to date officially and exclusively, we carved “someday” into that bench. Just a glimpse of our shining eyes and giant smiles and you’ll know how much hope and possibility that word held for us!
I kept “someday” close to my heart for a long time as a promise of beautiful things to come . . …
Do you remember the story of the 12 Canaan spies? I’ve fallen in love with that story again as I’ve studied it for a couple weeks now.
Know what I’m most intrigued by? The fact that 12 guys could go for 40 days seeing the same dirt, grass, & hills; enduring the same weather; eating the same scrumptious fruit; wandering the same walled cities – and come back with 2 completely different stories!
When the spies report to Moses, they all agree that Canaan is a huge, fertile land flowing with milk and honey, rife with strong, fortified cities, and full of giants. …
One of my favorite lines from the detective show, Monk, is when Monk admits,
It’s a blessing and a curse.
See, Mr Monk is a man who refuses to shake hands for fear of germs, touches light poles consecutively (backtracking for any missed ones), and wears an identical shirt/pant/sport coat ensemble every single day.
He's also an absolute GENIUS at solving crimes. When he enters a murder scene he inevitably finds the smallest overlooked detail or some random object that’s missing or moved – and ultimately unlocks the who-dunnit!
Sure, we shake our heads at his compulsiveness, but that same attention to detail makes us shake …
I was in a situation recently that I didn’t like at all. My stomach was churning. My mouth was dry. I could feel my heart starting to beat faster which I knew was making my face turn red. (Hate it when that happens!) And to top it off, within 2 minutes I was supposed to get up and share authentically with a less-than-inviting audience. Uggh!
All of a sudden I remembered this TedTalk and decided, “What do I have to lose?” So I stretched both arms upward into a "V" for a little while. And, you know, my stomach calmed down, my heart decided to …